"you cannot control all the events that happen to you but you can choose not to be reduced by them"" - MAYA ANGELOU

I keep saying that I don't feel safe in this situation and I think my body is trying to tell me it's not okay with what is happening...I think every single part of my body even protests this situation and hates it...I need to listen to myself and my own voice and body but something keeps harassing me and making it difficult for me to move forward and heal...it's madness to try to force or coerce someone to do something because the result will backfire for everyone involved - I assure you...

I'm really hurting...and if this monster keeps ignoring me, then this being is NOT a God or is not good...thank you for selling me so short and having me be with such a bad guy against my will..You may have used my body but YOU DON'T OWN ME!  I AM NOT A SLAVE!  (If you're going to treat me like some slave, I want to be compensated for the last four years - time, resources, my health and all the energy spent on this horrible dumb situation!)