Dear God - thank you for disrespecting me as a woman.  Despite all the lip service in Christianity about advocating for women's rights, you disrespect me as a woman and as a person, clearly.  I will not live in a prison of  "oughts" and the only reason WHY I'M in this present situation is because I thought (mistakenly) that I had to be this idealized version of a "Christian woman" and a Christian girl, but fuck that.

That has screwed me over.  Let me tell you what it's like to walk in my shoes - or how would you like or any of the other parties involved if you were in my shoes and had to be subjected to this treatment?  Do you think it's okay?  Let me ask you - is it okay?

I am turning away from you, my Rapist and abuser.  I'm done with your abuse!  This looks and feels like anti-feminism and misogyny and YOU KNOW EXACTLY THAT!  Thank you for pulling the carpet under my eyes and for weaving thishorrible trap and prison  - a situation NO WOMAN IN THE WORLD should be in!

"And I guarantee you there are other women who should stand up with me and be courageousenoughtospeakthatvoice.... [W]hat you’re doing is so fundamentally inhuman, unconstitutional, and I’ve sat here too long. . . . I dare you to walk in my shoes. . . . This debate is political – purely political – and I understand your story, but you don’t understand mine. I’m grateful for the freedom." - Representative A

So when you're harassing me or bullying or tormenting me next time, remember that you are also tormenting a Judge, a senator, a professor, an aspiring diplomat, a phD student, a doctor...you are attacking me when I am in alliance with all these women above and I am one of the faces of the women who are in these types of situation.  I am not the only one, thanks to all the stigmas and silence out there and the misinformation...YOU didn't create me to put up with or to even endure this situation, yet you're tormenting me about it and also keep pushing me beyond my boundary of comfort and safety and normalcy - yet another contradiction in Christianity that I keep noticing.  You deliberately prevented and obstructed me because you care about some agenda more than me or you are just sadistic and deranged.  This being obstructed the truth when I needed it the most for some f*cking agenda or propaganda.  Either way, shame on you for what you've done to me and to other women and know that a countless number of women are suffering or didn't have access to legitimate healthcare because of you...a countless number of women are in imprisonment - physical or mental - because of you...Everything you're doing amounts to demonization and nothing more..I am not afraid of you and I think there is a special place in hell for psychotic Perpertrators like you!  This being seems to think violence is some kind of an acceptable means but what a Psycho...this is unnerving.