This being has coerced to do something unwanted that has consequences for my Life, which is so absurd and deranged to me..you're not a God, you're a perpetrator and a terrorist!  I feel like I'm in a prison sentence (undeserved).  This being doesn't make me feel good anymore...I'm going to stage a protest - I'm going to stop eating and protest until this situation goes away...This being is a pig and an Antichrist and I'm genuinely scared...This being knows that this situation makes me anxious but is deliberately doing this..it's SO CRUEL!   This being is doing this explicitly against the advice and behest of the WHO organization for women...I'm really uncomfortable with how this being is forcing or coercing me to be in a situation or to do this or that when it is scientifically proven to be unsafe for me and for other women like me in this type of situation..Thisbeing is deliberately stoking anxiety and is gambling with my health and it IS NOT OKAY!  I've reached a limit with this situation - I can feel it...I think what this being is doing ethical - trying to decrease my health due to some f*cking sick ideology...This being is trying to jeopardize my health and I'm not sure why..this has been going on for four years and I'M REALLY REALLY SCARED....I need to listen to my brain, heart, health and mind and every fiber of my being tell me to GET OUT of this situation and to NOT be in this situation anymore...This being is an obsessive lunatic...

I feel like this guy, tied to this immense weight and burden that need to come off!

This following article was really helpful in helping me to understand the abusive emotional relationship I have with God (notice the emphasis in the article about unhealthy and dangerous patterns) - 

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/friendship-20/201506/20-signs-your-partner-is-controlling

(especially Inability or unwillingness to ever hear your point of view)  I feel like I'm going to pass out like this...