Wednesday, September 30, 2020

White ribbon awareness on red love heart tree for International Day for the Elimination of Violence against Women concept

I'm worried about my heart health..This situation is unsafe, deleterious, odious, noxious, non-sensical, unwise, dangerous, and bad....this being is tormenting me unrelentlessly and I don't want to continue for the sake of my health...I deserve to be free from this nightmare...
So everytime I think of this situation and feel anxious, this being conjures up an image of someone harming using or with terrorist tactics and it's really really scaring and unnerving me.  This being is resorting to torture and coercion to make me "comply" with Rape and it is CRIMINAL and goes against UN Conventions.  This being is a predator and is slowly killing me..Please pray for Susan's freedom from bondage, oppression and deliverance





This is how I feel...this ghost is my foe...

Danger - keep out and bail

I'm tired of your violence.  All you know is violence, violence, violence.  You're a Rapist and you are and sat silent and abetting while so much patriarchy was being waged against me.  You perpetuate violence against me and my body and you are not what you say you are - women's rights are HUMAN RIGHTS!  You are a barbarian, a prison guard, a torturer who defies UN Conventions and knowingly leads me down a wrong path..you are cruel and are demonic...youdon't know shit about women's rights...


that is all you do - control and manipulate like a puppeteer  and it's sickening!  

Tuesday, September 29, 2020

Scientific evidence

https://www.refinery29.com/en-gb/coercive-contraception-uk?fbclid=IwAR2k1d8Q5BGEHb2Lkytnoq8IWFZCpZG5UbA4gGYF7Gl0plHOv7VIVDjg2lM

Another form of reproductive coercion is:  "A Guttmacher Institute policy analysis states that forcing a woman to terminate a pregnancy she wants or to continue a pregnancy she does not want violates the basic human right of reproductive health."

I came across this post: there is the label "forced childbirth" or "reproductive coercion" or "coercion of reproduction."  I think Michigan State University has done some research on this.  But this form of behavior may even amount to sexual violence (coercing or pushing or pressuring someone to become pregnant against his or her will) or forced childbirth or motherhood may constitute a form of torture (Refinery 29)” One commenter replied, "I think it is a form of sexual violence"  Another commenter replied: "I think it is a form of gender-based violence" https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Reproductive_coercion#:~:text=Birth%20control%20sabotage%20includes%20removing%20a%20condom%20after,contraceptive%20patches%29%2C%20or%20throwing%20away%20oral%20contraceptive%20pills. Another source states that "Reproductive coercion is considered a serious public health issue"

stop violence against women written on the chart paper.

this being is a monster

I'm going to turn the table upside down on this situation - I'm so sick of the terrorism and the wanton violation of human rights.  I'm going to rebel like crazy in this situation...This being is perpetuating the abuse knowing that it is violence and is harmful to me and my health..you're a violent Whore and is a danger to me!

Monday, September 28, 2020

violence against women

This being keeps coercing me into this impossiblesituation (what is probably regarded widely as unsafe and scientifically advised against) and if I don't comply, this being threatens with violence or violent images...this IS VIOLENCE AGAINST WOMEN, as echoed by many others on FB etc.

Sunday, September 27, 2020

the ugly truth - this "God" is a crazy stupid pimp - save me from this lunatic

I'm walking away..this being is a deranged spirit whom I have indulged too long and IT'S GOING TO STOP for the sake of my Life, safety, well-being and sanity.  This being is a demonic spirit that knows no bounds or limits and is determined to torment or torture her as the previous article in my previous post warned against (as exemplified by how religion enables forced childbirth or motherhood as a form of torture against women and girls).   This is an egregious, odious, alarming situation and I'm frightened that this being is some spirit that doesn't care about me but wants to harm and bring me down.   I feel no hope in this "God" or whatever this being is..I just want to disengage and just defend myself against this Evil, harmful, dangerous being.  Whomever is reading this, please lift up a prayerto the Universe - this being is determined to hurt and bring me down and I'm feeling really disheartened..It's clear I'm dealing with a sociopath...you have to be delusional or deranged to thwart or coerce or pressure women with deception and lies and myths to prevent them from receiving legitimate healthcare (as a lot of right-wing evanglicals do through CPCs).  I think this is a very sobering situation that deserves a second look and I'm caught up at the nexus of all these societal and structural forces that discriminate against women here in the U.S. and I feel like I'm in the hands of a lunatic who doesn't care about me but sees my body as something to exploit or gain some sick goal through...this being reminds me of some pimp or trafficker who is using me despite the tolls to my health or the costs to me.  Being with this being is like being with a crazy blood-thirsty witch who is so pathetic and loserish and a demonic coercion of reproduction Rapist who has an unhealthy obsession or fetish with children (or traditionalism or domesticity)God - you're a Rapist and I say this over and over and over!  All of this is happening against my will or consent and the fact that this situation is shady, dishonest even raises my doubt about whether or not God is really real because how can this happen?  This being is the worst being I've ever met in my entire life - so mean, controlling, harmful, dangerous, toxic, deceitful, lying, hateful, duplicitous and angry and unforgiving.  This being is darkness...This being is insane.  This is the f*cking bad news..this being is the bad news.  Save me from this Rapist, from this Rapist, from this Rapist.  This being is my abuser andperpetrator..Save me from this Rapist, this Rapist, this Rapist. This being is madness and has created a web of deceit and dupe.  I just wanted to warn everyone =)
This situation has to STOP.  I've reached a limit as a human being and I didn't sign up for slavery and terrorism is not okay!  This being keeps pushing me beyond what I'm comfortable with and even though every single part of me is crying out for this being to stop tormenting me, this being won't stop.  I'm really scared that this situation is hurting me and is such a burden and weight that I cannot bear it anymore (as how God created me).  It is too extreme, unsafe and dangerous but this being won't listen and continues this assault against me.  It feels like emotional rape and coercion and I don't see how this situation is any different from a child marriage or other sick patriarchal form of keeping women in bondage and oppression.  I REFUSE TO LIVE LIKE THIS!  If you're reading this, please ask one of your friends or someone in your community to pray for me.  I'm really scared...

https://www.yahoo.com/news/children-forced-children-065600666.html

The terms are: forced pregnancy and motherhood which expose women to further UNNECESSARY violence....This article is really appalling and the lines 'The Church often has a large role in these cultural issues, pressuring the mother, etc, so that abortion does not take place,' says Shelby.   'Where is the Church on preventing violence against these girls?'"  is really eye-opening

The article further discusses: "This generally falls under the banner of “forced pregnancy” – an encompassing term, and one that I’ve found myself writing about often of late. There are the news stories about Poland, for example, where the government and Church are pushing to tighten laws around abortion, meaning that many pregnant Polish women would be forced to give birth whether they feel that they want to or not. In Ireland, brave women continuously campaign against the Eighth Amendment, which forbids abortion except in cases where the pregnancy is likely to lead to the mother's death." The article further states, "The pattern of forced child pregnancy and motherhood as a form of torture persists in Latin America and the Caribbean,” but “states ignore this serious violation of human rights"

There is another form of abuse and that is called: 'Not only is reproductive coercion a form of control," The user  whoshared her story also noted that her husband "made me feel really guilty and like I was being crazy," which sounds eerily like gaslighting, an abusive tactic in which the abuser manipulates someone into questioning their own sanity. After an influx of responses from other users urging her to be careful and safe, the woman sent in an update, telling the community that she is still unsure of what to do. "A lot of people alluded that my husband may be abusive, and that was a hard thing to think about," she wrote. "I just want to thank everyone again for their concern and messages. I'll update again when my thoughts are clearer." As countless Reddit commenters have noted, the kind of behavior this user's husband has exhibited is not okay - it is a form of sexual violence.   Even if a couple has agreed on having a baby, if one person decides they aren't ready, their partner needs to respect their wishes (and this goes for both partners)."

Also, there is further finding that states, "In 2013, for example, the American Congress of Obstetricians and Gynecologists recommended doctors incorporate intimate partner violence and reproductive coercion assessment into routine sexual and reproductive health care.

The study involved a survey of 4,674 women seeking care at reproductive health clinics in California and Pennsylvania. McCauley and colleagues found that reproductive coercion included two distinct characteristics: pregnancy coercion and condom manipulation. Pregnancy coercion includes threats or pressure to promote a pregnancy...., From these findings, the study recommends the following questions that health care providers can ask their patients...

This is very appalling and difficult to accept - these forms of abusing and subjugating women and unfortunately, religion plays a huge role in perpetuating these forms of abuse and TORTURE!


Friday, September 25, 2020

This being has coerced to do something unwanted that has consequences for my Life, which is so absurd and deranged to me..you're not a God, you're a perpetrator and a terrorist!  I feel like I'm in a prison sentence (undeserved).  This being doesn't make me feel good anymore...I'm going to stage a protest - I'm going to stop eating and protest until this situation goes away...This being is a pig and an Antichrist and I'm genuinely scared...This being knows that this situation makes me anxious but is deliberately doing this..it's SO CRUEL!   This being is doing this explicitly against the advice and behest of the WHO organization for women...I'm really uncomfortable with how this being is forcing or coercing me to be in a situation or to do this or that when it is scientifically proven to be unsafe for me and for other women like me in this type of situation..Thisbeing is deliberately stoking anxiety and is gambling with my health and it IS NOT OKAY!  I've reached a limit with this situation - I can feel it...I think what this being is doing ethical - trying to decrease my health due to some f*cking sick ideology...This being is trying to jeopardize my health and I'm not sure why..this has been going on for four years and I'M REALLY REALLY SCARED....I need to listen to my brain, heart, health and mind and every fiber of my being tell me to GET OUT of this situation and to NOT be in this situation anymore...This being is an obsessive lunatic...

A businessman chained to an iron ball tries to jump and reach a large silver key hanging above. Stock Photo - 85182023

I feel like this guy, tied to this immense weight and burden that need to come off!

This following article was really helpful in helping me to understand the abusive emotional relationship I have with God (notice the emphasis in the article about unhealthy and dangerous patterns) - 

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/friendship-20/201506/20-signs-your-partner-is-controlling

(especially Inability or unwillingness to ever hear your point of view)  I feel like I'm going to pass out like this...


Thursday, September 24, 2020

Mariah Carey, one of my favorite singers from my childhood, wrote of her ex-husband in her memoir that she felt held captive in that relationship and like she was in prison..I feel the same way when I think about "God" - this being threatens my life every day and I feel like I'm in prison when I think about this being...

"Every poem breaks a silence that had to be overcome" - Adrienne Rich

Wednesday, September 23, 2020

Let me tell you a crazy story

There was a girl who genuinely trusted God in her time of need and when she was vulnerable...but this being stabbed her in the back and criticized and condemned her and has been using her the last 4 years without even having her back in the end and not even being there for her despite all the rhetoric and guilt-mongering...Because of this being, this girl made a lethal foolish choice of NOT HAVING DONE WHAT SHE SHOULD HAVE and choosing the best healthcare for herself and is now suffering the consequences of this manipulator's schemes and trap.  This being is demanding or coerced this young girl to comply with its arbritrary, unreasonable demands and has coerced her to do something that is IMPOSSIBLE FORANY WOMAN TO DO because it is so misogynistic, UNSAFE, sexist and anti-feminist.  This being who is supposed to protect and guide her has lured her into some trap and is demanding her to overlook and neglect her own needs and safety and security over and over and over again these past 4 years.  As if this wasn't enough, this being torments her and because of this being's deceit, she has exposed herself longer than she should have to a really horrible UNSAFE situation that threatens her well-being, making it difficult if not impossible to sleep the last year and is giving her a nightmarish hellish existence that I wouldn't wish on my worst enemies (a kind of nightmare I can only Satan scheming or concocting).  It is crystal clear that this being doesn't have her best interest or even her health or well-being in mind and is only capable of demonizing or condemning her despite her dozens of petitions and pleas.  What is it all for?  It is for rhetoric and some sick ideology my mind fails to understand or comprehend...This young girl is me.  And I don't love this being anymore, not after how this being has treated me UNNECESSARILY these past four years like some torturous prisoner..I feel like I'm in some chamber of hell when I'm with this being...When I believed in Christianity, I didn't know I was signing up for patriarchy, abuse and misogyny...what this being is doing doesn't amount to more than witchcraft...I just wanted to expose the truth...
"you cannot control all the events that happen to you but you can choose not to be reduced by them"" - MAYA ANGELOU

I keep saying that I don't feel safe in this situation and I think my body is trying to tell me it's not okay with what is happening...I think every single part of my body even protests this situation and hates it...I need to listen to myself and my own voice and body but something keeps harassing me and making it difficult for me to move forward and heal...it's madness to try to force or coerce someone to do something because the result will backfire for everyone involved - I assure you...

I'm really hurting...and if this monster keeps ignoring me, then this being is NOT a God or is not good...thank you for selling me so short and having me be with such a bad guy against my will..You may have used my body but YOU DON'T OWN ME!  I AM NOT A SLAVE!  (If you're going to treat me like some slave, I want to be compensated for the last four years - time, resources, my health and all the energy spent on this horrible dumb situation!)





Tuesday, September 22, 2020

"Social change can seem sudden, as if millions awoke one day to the same realization. But really, scholars say, consensus is constructed through thousands of small acts over generations" - anonymous
"Liberation must come from within" - Sandra Cisneros
keep your f*cking law off my body!

Monday, September 21, 2020

please stop terrorizing me - God (RTS)

Emotional abuse word cloud concept, words related to emotional abuse and despair. Emotional abuse on white.



Child abuse concept. Teddy bear covering eyes in an empty room, front view, copy space
I'm genuinely crying out to whatever this being is to stop harassing and abusing me..I want people to know what this being is doing to me in isolation and silence.  I cannot handle the anxiety anymore and I'm in distress...If this being doesn't stop terrorizing me, I'm going to raise hell

I'm really cohabitating with a monster...this being or whatever it is is renting space in my head for free and it's literally so toxic!
"Be the blessing and the Revolution" 


prison #3 : stock illustration 
misogyny, RTS, anti-feminism, sexism, torture, terrorism against my right to control my Life and body, cruel and unusual punishment

NO against torture and terrorism

I cannot ACCEPT the violence anymore.  I will not let anything or anyone even touch a single hair on my head..I'm so fed up with this degrading treatment.  The person who wrote this last week - can you imagine if "God" punished her for what she wrote or the way she feels?  This constitutes gross and wanton human rights abuse...

This person said she gets too anxious so having a kid would be dire...I resented you before you were born. Time was the worst, the 20+ years it would take from my life to create and maintain yours, I hated you. When I sat in my silent home reading a book or writing with only the tap of the keys breaking the peace, I hated you for taking this away. When I learned something new or achieved a goal, I knew it wouldn't be this way once you were here, everything would stop and I hated you. When I looked in the mirror, secure and whole and imagined my skin strewn with scars of your birth, I hated you. 

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IT's simply impossible to go on like this...I looked up the definition of torture and it says:

the action or practice of inflicting severe pain or suffering on someone as a punishment or in order to force them to do or say something.

This is how I feel...

Woman Gesturing No Or Stop Sign Pop Art Style Banner Dot Background Vector Illustration

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=acd7FZgX7_Q&feature=youtu.be

it's ironic that "God" is the one who is torturing me even though U.S. is a signatory to the UN Convention against Torture

Sunday, September 20, 2020

I'm tired of being a puppet or a robot.  I'm tired of the puppeteering and feeling like I have to appease - this is about my time, health, resources, freedom and LIFE - quality of life. This needs to goddamn stop because you're really scaring me and alienating me - "God".  This being is doing this when it itself would NOT be in my shoes and go through the things I'm going through, so why is it demanding everything I do?  Even RBG fought against the policies you're shoving down my throat...I hate you!  I'm so tired of the emotional rape..This being keeps demonizing me through this situation and it's becoming really harrowing, a life and death situation
https://ew.com/tv/kate-mckinnon-best-moments-as-ruth-bader-ginsburg-on-saturday-night-live/

I love the rap

Saturday, September 19, 2020

I'm so sick and tired of this being appropriating my body and this being has the galls to harass you about it..it's so terrifying...I feel like this being is monstrous and this being is not a good spirit that cares about me..I hate this ideology, this goal, this agenda - whatever it is..it is so sickening and hypocritical!
RIP RBG...you were admirable and I admired your strong voice!  

I don't deserve terrorism for no reason!

This being continues to terrorize and harass me and I'm really scared...my life is in danger.  I'm not comfortable with this situation anymore..

Friday, September 18, 2020

Anti-violence is a basic human principle!

It is over - this being is f*cking mad..this being was perturbing and harassing me while I was working out this morning - who does that?!  Who harasses someone while they are working out?!  A sign of classic abuser and perpetrator..I rebel against you and walk away from you forever!  This being is a douchebag and I hate it...It is abject horror...I don't feel safe around this being...

This is dire - danger

This being is having me prescribe an off-the label method that is known to have risky side-effects to deal with this situation and I'm really uncomfortable with this...this being is absolutely insane - it is KNOWINGLY having me be in this situation despite all the risks and dangers involved.  This being is a horror - it is causing literally horror and a life and death situation that could have been prevented with science and legitimate healthcare..UGH!  shame on you.  There is ABSOLUTELY no excuse for VIOLENCE - VIOLENCE IS NOT OKAY UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES and this being keeps going against that

Thursday, September 17, 2020

terrorism - it's enough!

I realized that I cannot move on or move forward until I'm honest about a few things.  INSTEAD OF letting me get a simple scientific procedure that would have saved MY LIFE, this being took everything from me - my place, my physical health intermittently, my peace on a day-to-day basis, and sense of normalcy and calm and well-being.  Clearly, this is NOT a good spirit or a presence in my Life anymore...this being's manipulation and control entails me "going along with this forced undeserved prison sentence" and if I don't, facing threats of retribution.  It continues in a vicious cycle all day long.  Because I am a woman, apparently I CAN SUFFER to this being..NO MEANS NO
!  this being is arbitrary and extremely violent...it's scary
Instead of letting me live my life with freedom, this being is resorting to all sorts of tactics...for what?!  

 A picture of me bleeding at the lips again..why am I going through all of this exactly?!  If a friend were going through this, I would be horrified for her...this is INJUSTICE
While others are dealing with the Coronovirus or the racial riots, I am dealing with a more deadly epidemic - the epidemic of terrorism in the U.S. against women.  The right-wing Republicans and males and other evangelicals have partly made my otherwise serene and sensible and rational life into a hell, a hellish nightmarish existence where I have no freedom and there is an attack on my body and soul every day (for the last 4 years).   I am living a sub-standard human life in the U.S. where I am the victim of terrorism every day which is shocking and appalling to me.  I have the same Constitutional rights as everyone else - every other woman - but because I was brainwashed and indoctrinated from making my Life-saving decision at the time, I am now "supposedly" doomed to a prison sentence of misogyny, anti-feminism and ignorance and sexism.  This being who is supposedly my "Lord and Savior" is shortening my lifespan and decreasing my physical and mental health and increasing my anxiety for some sick goal or agenda or ideology I don't understand.  It is too sickening for me.  So I want the whole world to know that this being - this God - is condemning me to a "supposed" prison sentence (it feels so long and drawn-out already) for an innocent mistake when I was really vulnerable.  I trusted this being with all my heart and this being is killing me and "punishing" me in ways I cannot describe (because it is so horrible) because of whatever reason I cannot even grasp.  I just wanted the whole world to know this being is a violent fiend and a monster and all of this - the gospel, evangelicalism, Christianity - is about an agenda it seems.  This being is waging war - a silent, pernicious, deadly war - on a poor vulnerable girl in her 30s who is trying to figure herself out and I just wanted to send a caveat to the world..I just wanted to let the world know what I am going through so I am not going through it so "supposedly" alone.  There is no f*cking excuse for VIOLENCE or for misogyny or sexism!  NONE.  So why is this being, after all of these posts and my years of petition, still perpetuating all of these vices and structural injustices against me?  I am NOT a victim or a target but a sentient, breathing human being who needs to feel safety and wellness in order to survive every day even in these chaotic times.  I am writing and asking the Universe for one life-line to save me from this situation, this chaos, to escape this horrible prison sentence.  This being keeps weaponizing this situation and attempts to terrorize me or force me to "live" or be like a f*cking robot (which is a paradox - you can't LIVE as a robot) or whatever but this is NOT going to work - violence is a crime and there is absolutely NO EXCUSE for it whatsoever!    



Wednesday, September 16, 2020

My inadvertent fall into compromising my safety and well-being

1.  It started with RTS - trying to elicit my trust and having me trust in this being unconditionally, like a Father
2.  It started with the brainwashing and the indoctrination
3.  It started with the control and manipulation - the legalism, the "frowning down" upon certain things
4.  It started with the pressures, the threats and fears of retribution and intimidation

I hate violence and absolutely condemn it - I condemn this being because this being seems to condone and take delight in perpetuating violence and seems to view it as some justifiable means..what a sick being...I hate this f*cking misogynistic being.  This being has the "responsibility to protect" yet it totally steered me in the opposite direction the last four years by exploiting a girl who was vulnerable!    I condemn this and I condemn this gross manipulation and I condemn your hypocrisy you evangelical bully!   You f*cking impose this shit on the "precious daughters and sons" of all those evangelicals who f*cking preach hypocrisy at the pulpit you piece of shit!  You will not use violence to justify at one of your sick goals AT MY EXPENSE and violate my bodily autonomy in this way you f*cking devil!  I don't deserve terrorism because I didn't do anything wrong!  This being keeps using a very unsafe and dangerous situation - from every point of view (public health, WHO, UN, NOW)  - to weaponize and threaten my safety and well-being...
You're a monster - I'm done with you!




Tuesday, September 15, 2020

Thank you for having me or forcing or coercing me to be around a bad toxic guy...thank you for being so cavalier about my health and access to legitimate healthcare and about my safety and well-being...I am genuinely scared by what this being is doing - all the coercion, the threats and intimidation and the pressure and all the anxiety this being is causing..you're an evangelical terrorist and a Nazi and you don't know shit about women's rights!  This being is monstrous...you're no different from an evangelical terrorist who blow up abortion clinics and target women's health providers!  This being is waging some kind of a terrifying war on me and I'm deathly scared..this is a lethal trap.   I know there are other people who feel the same as me so I don't know why this being is targeting me and making my life a living hell...This being is a Psycho and you don't deserve me you f*cking terrorist!  You are a monster and a perpetrator and I'm never coming back to you again!  I'm walking away from you forever!  You shouldn't be allowed  to come into contact with human beings...This being is an evangelical Psychopath...If a person is anxious or doesn't want to do something, they shouldn't be coerced to do anything - this would constitute human rights abuse and violation and falls under the UN Convention for the Rights of Women..there is no excuse for violence - NONE whatsoever.  And there is no justification for what this  being is doing except to torture and make my life miserable..I cannot and WILL not tolerate what this being is doing anymore because this goes against basic human decency of safety, the right to Choose, freedom, human rights and bodily autonomy...

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The Convention against Torture and Other Cruel, Inhuman or Degrading Treatment or Punishment (commonly known as the United Nations Convention against Torture (UNCAT)) is an international human rights treaty, under the review of the United Nations, that aims to prevent torture and other acts of cruel, inhuman, or degrading treatment or punishment around the world.


For the purpose of this Convention, the term "torture" means any act by which severe pain or suffering, whether physical or mental, is intentionally inflicted on a person for such purposes as obtaining from him, or a third person, information or a confession, punishing him for an act he or a third person has committed or is suspected of having committed, or intimidating or coercing him or a third person, or for any reason based on discrimination of any kind, when such pain or suffering is inflicted by or at the instigation of or with the consent or acquiescence of a public official or other person acting in an official capacity. It does not include pain or suffering arising only from, inherent in, or incidental to, lawful sanctions (Article 1.1).

https://www.ohchr.org/EN/ProfessionalInterest/Pages/ViolenceAgainstWomen.aspx

I'm uncomfortable with every aspect and second of what this being is doing - for the f*cking sake of its f*cking ideology and agenda and goal?!  Fuck you!  This being is a horror villain from some movie who deserves no space in my Life!

Everyone else is right - your reputation precedes you and you're an abuser (like an abusive boyfriend, husband, torturer).  It's over!  You're not Love - you're hate!

SOS II

This is clearly terrorism - forcing or "coercing" someone to "bend" to another person's will even though this is clearly bad and unsafe for me..I don't agree with this agenda!  I hate you for coercing me every step of the way the last 4 years and I hate you for being a terrorist - you're clearly a terrorist and a sick being who doesn't care about me or my well-being..you are endangering my Life!  This being is absolutely crazy and a madman who keeps terrorizing and petrifying me..I'm in danger

This is blatantly terrorism

No to violence against Susan!
Noto deprivation of freedom regarding Susan!
No to stripping away of essential civil and human rights regarding Susan!

Large group of people seen from above gathered together in the shape of " NO" text