Let me tell you a story.  There was a 30-something year old girl who was vulnerable and helpless and genuinely was leaning on a being or a higher entity to guide and rescue and help her.   Then there was chaos, darkness and confusion.   That girl depended on this being every day - through prayer, going to church, asking friends to remember her, reading the Bible, etc.  This girl depended on this being to provide for her as the "Bible" says.  Then  this being uses her, exploits her and dupes her through her thoughts (RTS) and emotions.   This being has brainwashed her, but unbeknownst to her, there is severe darkness, an entrapment, a horrible storm if you will.  This being, four years later, continues to condemn her, cast guilt in her mind and to abuse her through spiritual and religious abuse  This being continues to harm her, making it difficult for her to sleep and has trapped her in a prison sentence (knowingly and intentionally and deliberately), even though scientific evidence and data suggest that this situation and what this being has done and to other women lead to decreased physical and mental health, increased anxiety and exposure (longer) to harmful situations and toxic situations.  Yet this being continues to terrorize and harm her and hurt her and scare her and intimidate her.  So much so that she wishes she could file a permanent restraining order against this predator and perpetrator.  This being does not care about my well-being and treats this girl like some cult leader - someone who is in its way because she is inconvenient.  That girl is ME.