I'm going to be as honest and blunt as I can.  I'm dealing with a predator who terrifies and intimidates me on a daily basis.   I know that what I'm going through is a part of something bigger and is the tip that points toa larger disturbing picture.   But it doesn't minimize what I'm going through and is scary precisely because of that fact.  I don't like being used a s a pawn or feeling like I'm a pawn for something and it feels like spiritual abuse.  I'm not sure how all of this happened, except to say that it feels like it all snuck up on me and something I trusted and felt I could lean on deceived me.  I made the horrible grave mistake of listening to this being and NOW feel entrapped.   I'm living this miserable cycle of having to indulge this being because I didn't listen to my in stinct and gut.  This being is flagrantly violating my human rights and it is impossible for me to LIVE like this.