I'm dealing with a being who is mean or is consistently attacking or abusing me for reason.  This started 4 years ago in 2014 and I felt like I had to "put up with this" or face threats of retribution.   Even though there were times when I didn't feel safe or didn't want to stay in certain situations, I felt like I had to or God would be displeased or punish me.  This kind of punitive thinking has gotten me into trouble and into situations that were NOT in favor the last four years and THINGS ARE NOT GOING TO CONTINUE this way anymore.  I DON'T deserve to be bullied or harassed for no reason or degraded or have my voice be silent.  I feel as if I'm dealing with some perpetrator who is mean and inherently vicious and manipulative for no reason and I'm NOT going to put up with this!  As a woman, this situation is akin to violence against women or trafficking or slavery and THIS IS REALLY BAD.  This continuous violation of my civil and human rights is not going to be silenced and buried and swept under the rug.  I'm dealing with a being who thinks it's okay to isolate and abuse and torment or torture me and it is NOT okay.  I'm not a victim but a woman - a whole woman and I have rights.