I realize it's not going to change.  This being has been duping, deceiving and demonizing me the last four years since 2014 for no reason and it's up to me NOW to break away from this spiritual abuse.  I'm closing that chapter in my life.  I am a woman and a human being and I have integrity and I need to HEAL from the last four years.  I kept putting up with the bad and the abuse in hopes that this being would change my circumstances or would change things in my favor but nothing has changed and I realized it's not going tochange.  I've only been indulging this being's whims or viciousness or maliciousness and I'M NOT going to put up with this anymore.  I CHOOSE TO not accept this horrible and abusive situation, I choose to make my own choices and NOT succumb to patriarchy, I choose to make my choices as a woman who is in shared experience with millions of other women out there who are suffering or have to experience suffering because of their gender.  I choose to not accept this being's abetting of patriarchy and misogyny towards me in my own life.  I choose to emerge from it and from this situation, I choose to LOVE myself, I choose to be beautiful, I choose to be strong and to HAVE A VOICE.