I'm really scared - this being is making me take something which causes adverse side-effects and it's so shady and I don't feel right about it...this situation is still going on..it's been four years and I've had enough - it is DONE.  As a human being, I CANNOT rationally go on like this or I'll go crazy...this being seems to play this game where when I feel stable or more myself, it turns my situation upside down.  This happened last Wednesday - my crazy roommate "turned off" the utilities without any adequate notice (to try to get me to leave sooner I think), so I was without electricity and heating for over 24 hours in this crazy cold weather that is characteristic of Chicago...I'm still cold and a bit shocked from that horrible  nightmare (my body is in shock I think) - I've been in blackouts before but I've always been around people and they were for a short period...(usuallythree or four hours at the most).  This was the most horrible experience I've ever had..the temperature dropped down to 58 degrees F the next day which is ILLEGAL and I had to stay at a friend's friend's place.  This experience was akin to what I felt likewas pure horror (I hate being cold as a woman and I got candles and layered up like crazy to keep warm) but I think my body still remembers being cold..it is the worst experience EVER!  I think I'm going to take legal action against this crazy roommate and the landlord for sure...I told them that the temperature was down to 58 degrees and that there was no electricity or heating but THEY DID NOT CARE!  I'm sure that is illegal :(  crazy...