It is a hopeless cause - I cannot stand this evangelical diabolical being anymore..this being is a Goddamn waste of my time..I'm not going to write this as a person who is angry or caught up in her circumstances but as an observer who has experienced RTS (religious-trauma syndrome).  I didn't realize that this being has been manipulating me for quite some time - of course, because religion is a system or set of beliefs, it is a subjective topic.  But in my experience, it has turned out to be more of a crutch or something toxic than anything else.  This being or whatever higher power this is has gotten used to me "putting up" with the bad or just "putting up with things" in general so the last five years of my "religious experience" has been me putting up with or leaning of "God" more out of habit and either God not meeting my needs or abusing or attacking me over and over for no reason.  So I've reached this conclusion that God is not real or that he is not good - he doesn't care about my well-being or needs and is actually exacerbating my circumstances through extreme scenarios.  This being doesn't care if it is abusing me or if my needs aren't being met - it's about some deranged ideology or point that it is making at the end of the day and in this sense, this being reminds me a lot of the Republican party or all those right-wing conservative men who sit on the pulpit and preach at people...Imagine someone who keeps pushing you and making you feel bad about everything - what does this constitute?  It constitutes bullying at the end of the day and NOTHING ELSE!  This being is obsessed with a single issue and is too demanding..this being is NOT being realistic about my situation and is demanding that I sacrifice everything for this situation which is completely unrealistic and almost insane!  This being keeps terrifying and making me horrible and I'm not going to put up with this anymore!

Scared

I'm speaking on behalf of all women when I say this is a Life and death situation for me.  This being is treating it like some game but this is a matter of life and death and is gravely serious.  I'm really alarmed by this being's treatment towards  me - it is criminal and violent and scary...This being seems to delight or relish terrifying and horrifying me and I'm so revolted...My civil rights are being violated on a daily basis and it's a horrible feeling..I have all these bruises and scars from this being abusing me - I know what it's like to work with victims and survivors of gender-based violence and this is violence! I'm willing to resort to protests or whatever I have todo to expose this being and what it has done me to and to countless other women!  This being is treating me at a sub-par level, attacking all my rights.  This being is treating me as less than a human being as a result of this horrible situation and I'm not OKAY with this - I WILL NEVER BE OKAY WITH THIS!

Terrorism 4

This being is a giant abuser - a villain who thrives off of being misogynistic and crazy and just brutal towards me.  This being continues to abuse me...This being is hateful and cruel to me unnecessarily...I realized it is some kind of a dupe.  This BEING DOES NOT HAVE MY BEST INTEREST IN MIND and this being doesn't protect me.  This being is an aider and an abetter….I'm really uncomfortable with what this being is doing and it feels like a major violation of my boundary and safety.  My life is not better because this being is "guiding" or helping me..anything but.  This being is the worst thing to be dealing with during the Coronovirus and please save me someone from this lunatic.    I am going to shoot myself if I have to be alone with this being one day longer - this being is an illusion who is ruining my life and needs to go to hell!   

Terrorism 3

I fell out of bed last night in the middle of the night because I couldn't sleep and I lost my balance.   I have a huge bruise but this being doesn't care and continues to abuse and torture  me.  This is a sign that whatever this situation is HAS TO stop!  I'm starting to feel cursed and what this being is doing to me is clearly Misogynistic and even unsafe and dangerous.  I feel that speaking from a woman's perspective that this situation is WRONG and is perilous.  I  am speaking on behalf of all women when I say believe me, this situation is so wretched and is clearly ill-hatched.  I don't think I can go on like this anymore and this situation feels so abusive.  This situation is akin to slavery and my pride and dignity refuse to cooperate anymore!  This being is obnoxious, absurd and illogical - nothing more than a berater and an abuser!    What this being is doing amounts to cruel and unusual punishment, torture and human and women's rights abuse.   What people say about this being is true - this BEING CANNOT BE REAL because it doesn't take mere omniscience for a "God" to be real - it takes that entity to be good to  be real, as Euripedes said.  I'm so done with this Sadistic abuser - it's OVER!

terrorism 2

this abuser continues to torment me..please save me from  this abuser.  There is no excuse for terrorism - NONE!

Terrorism

This being is a major jerk.  Nothing has changed since I've written.  The abuse continues.  It's clear that I WILL NOT get anywhere in my life with this being continually doing this in my life.  The time I wasted on this being and on this Psychotic abuser perpetrator's whims seems like such a Goddamn waste.   I tell this being to go to hell

This being is a jerk.  I don't know whether this is really God or an Evil spirit but it feels more like the latter.  This being does not care about my well-being and continues to severely terrorize me.  This being seems to think something so backwards and illogical is okay WHEN IT IS NOT F*CKING OKAY!